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Tuesday, September 12th, 2006
3:29 am	useless individual, few desires and fewer motivations what am I doing here, and why do I presist is it reasonable to stay when reason cannot be found everyday that passes is like another reason to stop still here yet little has changed, so much is static what do i desire, what keeps me here? Current Mood: lonely (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 22nd, 2006
2:49 am	I do miss her often (Comment on this)
Friday, June 9th, 2006
1:05 pm	I saw her briefly today. Im sure I looked like an idiot but at least I saw her mom before her otherise I dont think I would have remembered how to say hello. First I was happy, then sad, and it persists. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 31st, 2006
11:23 am	I spoke with a woman on the phone yesterday who made me want no part of this place. (Comment on this)
Monday, May 29th, 2006
2:06 am	The fool I am. (Comment on this)
Friday, May 26th, 2006
2:09 am	I don't talk to my mom because I know she is one of the few people that asks me the questions I don't want to answer, and I'm tired of lying. I'm tired of telling them I am fine. Sometimes I can't help but laugh inside at the way I act and the way I really am. A walking lie I feel sometimes, not so put together as I suppose people would think. I have come to the point I reach at times where I simply do not know what do to. (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 25th, 2006
4:05 am	Why am I still here? (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006
2:03 pm	Is there a place for me in this world? I have met a fair number of people in my life and I feel so out of place sometimes. So often I feel like Im just barely putting up with people and perhaps they are just barely putting up with me. (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 7th, 2006
2:14 am	I seem to do a pretty good job of getting my hopes up... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 2nd, 2006
1:57 pm	No beautiful day is as beautiful as the days I would have with you next to me ...just a thought (Comment on this)
12:27 am	=( (Comment on this)
Monday, April 24th, 2006
12:20 pm	Something inside keeps me wanting her (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 20th, 2006
2:41 am	This world is full or terrible people and I want no part of it. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 18th, 2006
2:09 am	I havent seen my parents for a while, Im sure my mom thinks Im ignoring her but really, I just dont want to have to lie to her when she asks me how Im doing. (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 6th, 2006
3:23 am	Am I so easily forgotten, and what am I going to do? (Comment on this)
Friday, March 31st, 2006
8:58 pm	It's hard not being able to go and take care of her when she's not feeling well or she's sad, I wish so much I could just do at least that much (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 30th, 2006
10:04 pm	This would be easier if I didnt dream of her so often (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 23rd, 2006
2:25 pm	Feeling a bit forgotten, a bit unimportant. I seems hard to imagine that you could care about someone so much and then just apparently not care and not want, but I get the feeling that this is the case. I have to ask does she care? And if not did she ever really care. Maybe what we had wasnt what I thought it was or at least what she she wasnt what I thought it was. I know love and I know when I love, how can I know when other people love? Perhaps its just the pessimist in me coming through, or my lack of self-esteem either are a good reason. Im not angry anymore, just sad. Current Mood: lethargic (Comment on this)
Monday, March 20th, 2006
3:04 am	I want her, and I dont see it stopping (Comment on this)
Friday, March 10th, 2006
10:05 pm	She makes it hard to listen to Jimmy Eat world (Comment on this)